Why do I train?

People ask me constantly.. why do you train ? why are you doing that? truth is honestly.. I have no idea. I think it could be because I am so sickeningly competitive, this for me is a good and a bad thing. My competitive side does give me a constant sub conscious motivation to be better than others but obviously at times it can come across as arrogance and cockiness. As a cyclist you need these two factors which is a bit of a balls. Arrogance and a cockiness will give you an ego which you have to live up to, that ego will be the reason your willing to suffer alone for hours on end with your screaming legs that will cause you that emotional instability and regret of ever taking up this hobby. If any real cyclist says to you that they have not had a little weep of sheer desperation at times whilst out on the bike be it during training or racing they are just a liar if your not hurting, your not doing it right.

  

I just think this picture speaks for itself.. I hurt.. I have been hurting all winter but I am definetly not giving up, next year I want to be mine and I will hurt like this within reason for the rest of the winter until I know I have been hurt enough to compete.

I just think this picture speaks for itself.. I hurt.. I have been hurting all winter but I am definetly not giving up, next year I want to be mine and I will hurt like this within reason for the rest of the winter until I know I have been hurt enough to compete.